A Conceited fool

Everyone's life is in peril though minor and major and everyone has a fair share of bright days beyond their dark nights. There are several such facts which I do know but do not want to think about at the moment.
How wayward my life has been ever since the beginning as I think about it I regret it. Even as I am writing this posts thoughts keep running through my mind about the people who had even little opportunity than myself.  But I do not want to think about that either all I know there was always a chance to be better. Nobody's family is perfect just that mine is a little closer to imperfection having its own reasons and arguments behind it.
I am so much confused right now that even the task of drinking water seems so complex and uninteresting and yet so necessary that I don't know what to do.
I always believed in the act of doing good to others but no one ever taught me to be choosey about who to be good to. People who were once friends have done things that it feels weird to even have a formal relationship with them now. I am not talking about a single person in specific but how can someone be so selfish that too among friends, leave the general behind.
There is a perfect timing to everything, to the good and the bad as well. Even the people I would resort to even during the most stringent phases of my life find it difficult to comply with me. Then comes their life with an exclusive set of problems engineered just for them but I don't care about that much either right now.  All I am thinking about is me and myself.
This is nothing new its just the same old stuff with a new packaging. Over the years the security that I have felt is over now and as I look upon myself in the mirror I find myself looking at a conceited fool.