Being an Introvert

I think every one comes and goes through this phase where there is nothing that interests you and you do not want to do anything but sleep. I have loads of movies,serials and youtube and facebook and internet. But it is nothing that amuses me at the moment. It is funny how I mention youtube and facebook outside of internet. I think I should make a schedule and organize my day so that I just do not go on wasting it. I just wish to go to a place away from all the worries of everything. Someplace where I have money for everything and anything. I wish to have a life beyond the insecurities of love, life, success, family and everything. There are a number of reasons why I wish to move abroad but deep down I just wish to run away from everything. Not move away or walk away but run away. Not crying is considered to be a strength but not being able to cry your heart out dampens you from inside. There is a thing about introverts that they do not express themselves much infront of others but something which people do not know is that there is a constant analysis and action and reaction for each and everything I do all by myself. It happens all the time when I am with others and when I am not. I believe this is what stops me from expressing myself openly even to mysellf. I have run out of words to describe how I feel or maybe my inner self does not want something to be written which if someone else would read they would judge me. One of the disadvantages of being an introvert is that everything about everything remains buried down, hidden from the outside world and from the inside self. So that's it I do not know how I feel or atleast I do not know how to express it.