"Why do you do this to me?" She was in tears again as she asked herself this question. Probably for the hundreth time.
"Do you still love me the way you did years ago?"
"Do you still have that tingling feeling in your stomach everytime we meet?"
And millions such questions stormed her mind over and over again.
The pages of her book would flip whilst she sat gazing through her window..
The wintery afternoons when both of them would walk and keep walking through the outer circle of cannaught place. She remembers how tired she would get and still keep walking just for his sake.
There was a time when she would get scared at the name of that place and now even that doesn't exist.
Some relationships become bitter, some have a lot of fights, some have some other problems.
But the most dangerous case arises when the relationship becomes numb. Love exists, you know it does but despite all your effort you cannot feel it. This hurts the most.
The pages of her notebook would get wet in spots and wriggle shamelessly as she sat gazing at her mobile screen waiting for it to lit up.

Just then the mobile screen lit up and it was him
"Hello" her voice still shaky under forced control
"Hello where are you?" He seemed in a hurry
"Hostel" she replied knowing this call was just a formal talk about some work.
"Can we meet today?" He asked
"What happened?" She questioned back
"Nothing, just meet me today" his voice shivered and she could feel his tears rolling down her cheeks as the phone was disconnected.

Later that evening they met at a coffee shop near her hostel.
"I have decided" he said firmly
His eyes were red and he said this while holding her hand looking aimlessly at the lines of her hand.
Brushing it at times, trying to figure something out of it or maybe just for the touch.
"What?" She was more confused than sad now.
"Shonu, I love you a lot and I cannot live without you, and I... I just dont know what I will do without you.  You are the joy of my life and I cannot Imagine anything in my life without you" a sincerity could b sensed as he kept gazing at her hands.
"You have figured this now? Even I know how much you love me, how much you miss me. You have changed Yash, I don't know what but something in you has changed and my inability to find it out is making me irritated every now and then. You think I am a job for you and not your life. You know a day without you is unimaginable for me and yet you spend days without even properly talking to me..."
This list would have been longer but her tears interrupted again. Filling her throat and tears would roll taking turns.
She drew her hand away from his hand, covering her face.
"We will run" he said
The tears stopped right where they were, the sobbing stopped
She looked straight back at him as both of them tried to sunk in what he has just said.
The silence that prevailed between them in that moment was in complete synchronisation with the noise of the coffee house and in the background the song played
"Tu hai ki nahi.."